Pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again. I hate meltdowns. But again, it is one big huge band-aid being ripped off. The pain is so much and so overwhelming that I’ve got to do something with it. I don’t always make the best choices. Right now the ratio is not in my favor.
I never had any intention of making this blog all sweetness and light. I intend to share the things that work best for me and discuss things that might help. I want to talk about things that we need to pay attention to…like health care reform. And I really wanted to laugh about my foibles. I am a comic at heart. But that has not been coming across, not at all.
I pulled off the really painful family stuff. There’s no point in it. It’s like watching a traffic accident. Some families are like that. I will make no apologies except for posting unhelpful, unfunny stuff. Sorry ‘bout that.
Somehow I will find my voice here. The one that is irreverent and comic…and hopefully useful.
smalltownsmalltimes
August 31st, 2009
Finding your voice is hard — Lord knows, I’m still loooking for mine. I worry after every post I publish: is it too whiny? not funny enough? Too long? No point? I realize this is the worst thing to do if you are trying to write, but it’s who I am (a great, big worrier).
I have deleted posts and I have dragged my sad soul around because no one commented – thinking somehow that many blog comments = much self worth.
I say to you — just go. Whatever you want to write: funny, sad, mad, bored. That’s humanity.
BTW, I keep wanting to ask you — have you tried any medication for your fibro? I went on antidepressants and it literally changed my life. I had tow try two different meds and two doctors but I am seriously a different person and my pain is only occassional now.
Just curious.
Hope your day is happy and pain-free.
Tricia
September 3rd, 2009
You should never apologize for your blog not being funny or anything else. This is your blog to say whatever you wish. My blog is pretty depressing sometimes, most the time. I think boring, only about once a month do I ever make a joke, I think. IT’s our life, it’s not all peach n’ cream.
strangerhappenings
September 15th, 2009
Hrm.. Blogging for the greater good.. Sounds hard. I mean, what is the greater good, anyway? Anything you say will always find someone to scold it, to put it down.
But even with that there are always opposites who will find those words and praise them. Sadly, but truly, most of these people don’t say a thing, only watch.. While the rude people mouth off all the time.
That being said, I’m kinda surprised at all this blogging effort from ya, Mom! But, you are actually inspiring me to work harder on my own blog, though mine is waaay different from yours… But yes, you should never have to apologize for something you did in your own territory that you had perfect reason to do.
It’s about as pointless as apologizing for kicking a would-be-burglar in the face with a steel-toed boot. [ cousin had some fun with that, fun story >.> ]
Just thought I’d come check in on ya, have your blog bookmarked, I understand this is an old post, but me talking didn’t really fit in much with the other posts!
Love ya, Mom!
-Your son
[PS] holy hell is wordpress confusing at times.
Fibrochondriac
September 3rd, 2009
For me, the whole idea of blogging was for the greater good, playing with ideas, writing reviews, dissecting breaking news. I haven’t gotten there yet, but I’m trying. Thanks for the comment!
Fibrochondriac
September 15th, 2009
The greater good would be not “sitting in my shit” and being open and honest so other people with these types of illnesses can relate…and maybe laugh? Everybody has funks and family issues…why share the pain of a family fight? I’m pulling myself out of a funk and will get back to writing.
I am so freakin’ proud of you!!!